In July, I felt this wave of change coming in my life, a long time coming really. Since identifying which specific area of my life the change would affect first didn't come easy to pinpoint, I decided to do something drastic just to at the very least acknowledge to God that -- Yes, I feel it coming, I am ready to receive it and all that it will come with, thus the shaved hair cut.
It symbolizes a "clean slate" for a fresh beginning.
It's my way of saying yes to the changes I feel coming, yes without fear but rather with trust that God's got me and everything will work out just fine. It always work out fine as long as
I trust in The Lord, always.
See, I've made so many personal choices over the last few years that didn't produce pleasant outcomes in relationships with loved ones specifically, financially, and many other areas of my life that got affected. Some of those decisions happened to go against His very will for how I should live life for a more sweet or easygoing outcome. Yet while dealing with all the consequences and pains from choices made, I've continuously experienced so much mercy and grace from God through it all. He's so loving and still answered so much prayers in many other areas of my life. I often wondered why and how, and now realize that in those other areas of my life, I totally trusted him to lead and make ways out of what seems almost impossible.
(I could write books on how many times I've experienced God making ways for me but let's focus on this haircut's journey.) I've basically started to see Him turn so much of the mess I created into beautiful testimonies, teaching me how to stop even trying to fix the mess all together.
With a normal human mindset, it makes sense that I aim to work at cleaning up my own mess, but since I prayed about it all, I learned the hard way that God doesn't need my help to clean up even my mess. God just requires my cooperation, obedience and trust. All of which require me to relinquish control in many areas that I unknowingly love to take the reigns on things,
to let it all go to just embrace His process to change. And while practicing this, I started to feel the waves of change coming ahead, affecting so many areas of my life, even this blogging hobby. With God on my side, everything will work out fine. So I'm saying to The Lord, bring it on!
willing to do life with Your lead. How exciting to see how life turns out
from this moment on.
This haircut commemorates the wave of change coming soon for sure. I am ready.